Well I am officially about 3 weeks into this no complaining challenge. And it is not really going so well.
I think I am improving with not vocalizing my thoughts so much but right now I am faced with just that - my thoughts.
"We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." -2 Corinthians 10:5
Do you think Jesus whined and complained about His tasks here on earth?
"God, really, I am so tired of walking everywhere."
"Why don't these people get it? They just don't understand."
"But I don't want to wash their smelly, dirty feet."
"But I don't want to die."
"Is it really even worth it?"
We probably would not be where we are if Jesus had spent, no, wasted His time complaining like that.
I may not be vocalizing my dissatisfaction as much as before but my thoughts are definitely making themselves known. For hours, sometimes ruining entire days.
We just got back from an incredible (almost free!) trip to Mexico and for those of you with kids you probably understand what this week looks like for us. Basically it involves retraining your children to the way the were before they spent two weeks routine-free at a hotel with a buffet! (They just don't seem to understand why they have to eat what I make them to eat!) We also all slept in one room while there. So, again, why can't we all just sleep in one room at home? (That sentence was dripping with sarcasm.)
Needless to say this week has been a sleep deprived, long one. And my thoughts have ranged from "Grr! Why don't they just get it?!" to "I just need some time by myself. I never get any time by myself."
I am thankful for my children again this week. Thankful that they give me the opportunity to grow as a mother and as a person. I don't think there is any other position I could be in that could allow such trying times and such growth at the same time. (I am sure there are. But I definitely cannot think of any right now!) God is using them to shape me into the person He wants me to be. For that, I am thankful.
I am thankful that I am not alone. There are so many people in this world that have nobody day in and day out. And yes while quiet times alone are good and I would say necessary for growth (and sanity...), being alone all the time is definitely not good.
I am writing this post very quickly and in between (surprise, surprise) more discipline! So please forgive the hurriedness and probably many grammatical errors :)
I hope you have a happy Friday and weekend everybody! We are on Spring Break next week here. Should be interesting!
Ha ha! Kidding! I am very much looking forward to a relaxed week at home.
Have a fantastic weekend!